Friday, November 21, 2014

Sadness and Joy in Sending Andrew On "Mission"

Who posts both their sadness and great joys on-line for the whole world to see?  I usually don't.  I keep a lot of things to myself.  Some of them are too sacred and private to share and others' are just private family matters.  But, sometimes it seems needful to reach into cyberspace to share something we've experienced and learned. 

Interesting how that works, isn't it?

"Elder Garvin"
I sent my only son off yesterday, to serve the Lord.  He will serve as a full-time missionary of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (sometimes referred to as Mormons) for two years and then return home to finish his schooling, to work, and to marry and have a family. 

Approximately 88,000 other families have or are going through something similar to what we've recently experience as they've sent their beloved children, siblings, parents or grandparents off on similar journeys.  (This is the current number of missionaries serving in all parts of the world at their own expense, sacrifice and out of love for their God and their fellow man.)  They serve out of their own desire to love, bless, lift and teach the message of the restored gospel of Jesus Christ on the earth.

This morning I wondered what Hannah might have felt as she'd sacrificed her ALL to prepare her most precious of all gifts; her only son, for service to her Lord, Savior and King.  I think that I might have felt a bit of what she might have felt and I know that my love and understanding of her was greatly increased because of my own experience.

I cannot post even a small part of what I have been through with this precious son of mine.  What mother could?  Who, besides a loving mother, could possibly know of all the sacrifices of raising a child unto the Lord?  Who knows of the dedicated life from birth to adulthood; the care, worry, concern, pain, joys, work, chores, teachings, life lessons, hardships, tears, insights, meals, laundry, housing, finances, personalities, friends, outings, family prayers, devotionals, scripture study, bedside visits, tucking-in, lullabies, homework, questions and answers, maturation, hygiene, illness, wellness, spirituality, personal growth and progress, scouting, service projects, employment, education, heartfelt hugs, laughter and sorrows?

This son was (and is) most precious to me.  He came pre-wired to be who he was.  His heart was tender.  He was sincere as well as funny, and...he blessed my life tremendously.  Through him I learned to be more patient and loving, more aware of the needs of those around me.  From him I learned to laugh more, work harder and listen when he intently needed to be heard. 

I'm deeply grateful that he has chosen to serve the Lord.  I am grateful he was worthy and willing.  I'm also going through the sadness of separation. It's real and it's important to process through.  Yet, I wouldn't have it any other way.  I feel more blessed than sad and more grateful for the sacred events that lead up to his departure than I can even express. 

I'll miss him a lot.  What mother wouldn't?  We give our all to prepare them for life in the Lord's service. With that sacrifice comes the greatest joy (truly) as well as the sadness of missing someone you love and the most sincere prayers for their safety, well-being, and growth.

I just have to say that having just gone through this I have a new appreciation for the blessings, joys, and longings of sacrifice - that I haven't had before.  My depth of gratitude for the Lord's plan has increased astronomically.  His plan is for the greatest happiness for His children.  And, that happiness comes as a cost; our willingness to give our all so that someday, we can have His all.  Oh, what a beloved gift this is!

"If we give our all, we will get His all from the greatest of all." Last line in Jesus Christ, Gifts and Expectations

Do you know one reason why righteous mothers love their children so much? 
Because they sacrifice so much for them. 
We love what we sacrifice for and we sacrifice for what we love."  

1 comment:

  1. That quote made me cry, its been a long road of sacrifice but one i lovingly accept!!I never thought of things that way though.I feel although i have a husband i have made the sacrifices alone mostly, almost like a single parent in my case.But the lord has blessed me with an abundance of love for and from my kiddos!


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